She’s 1 year and a half when she got pregnant. We’re hesitant at first because she’s a fat Pomeranian spitz. But when her tummy grew after 3mos then it’s official. A big brown azkal mated her. That’s what they told me, I wasn’t always around that time so I haven’t watched her having a period and being in heat ready to mate. I should have warned my siblings that in her type of breed, they cannot mate with azkals or bigger than her size. She should be mated in her kind. Pomeranian spitz can bear one or two puppies only during their first pregnancy. I was worried about her health. I helped her deliver her six puppies one evening and those puppies were big and weren’t fully developed. She delivered her puppies because her body doesn’t have enough space for them to nourish and grow.
Her puppies died one a time then after three days, she bid farewell to the world. And I wasn’t even there. I was tending my grandmother at the hospital who was sick. And when I got home, my brother didn’t touch or bury her yet to wait for me. I can still feel the pang of pain that time I saw her eye opened, they say that she’s waiting for her guardian and still doesn’t want to go. My brother was worried about me because I was 4mos pregnant that. I cried a lot. I held her in my arms wishing that she can breathe, she’s still warmed but nothing happened. I kissed her and I saw her face dislocate and I cried again. I cannot believe she’s taken away from me. My mom was mourning too, she doesn’t have the courage to stay at home for days.
I mourned for days. I cannot help it. My mother-in-law warned me that it will affect my baby’s development inside my womb. My husband decided to give me another pet so that I can have a diversion. She’s a maltese-pomeranian named Chixi. They both have same mother, ChaCha a Pomeranian.
Still tears streams down my face while writing this blog even after a couple of years passed by. I can clearly remember my Thupsi, the time I spent with pampering her, chased her on the street, fed her, slept together with her up on the top of my belly, ate apple with her.
Maybe if she’s still alive, she can play with my little daughter. So sad that it lasted forever but ended so soon.